an empty feeling...

my name is written on His heart...



those are strong words that i think all too often i take for granted. over the past few days i have been finding myself asking the question "do i really love God?" and i think honestly my answer is no, atleast not the way i should.

i want to love God with every bone in my body, but my actions so often show otherwise. i want to be someone who is radiating Gods love, to have such an intimate relationship with Him that my eyes are only upon Him.

but as easy is it is for me to say this, life seems to get in the way. i get busy, i get distracted, i find myself compromising and "justifying" things to make it seem ok as to why my relationship with the Lord is "on hold". but the honest truth is that there is nothing more important, ever!

so this week i have been being intentional about God time. asking for a deeper relationship, fasting to focus on Him. realizing that i need to be patient and wait on Him. He will show up! He will answer our crys and our prayers, His word says that.

so i am at a point of brokenness. a point of being on my needs crying out to God because i feel distant, i feel so far away. but that isnt where the story ends, thankfully. today in chapel the speaker reminded us how we are never too far away for God. that he will always be there to pick us up and surround us with loving arms. always and forever...

how deep the Father's love for us...