being content with who i am: happy.

so 2 nights ago i got the pleasure of visiting Mickey's Diner in St. Paul, MN. it was an establishment created in 1938 and is most well known for its feature in the mighty ducks movies! so it was quite the treat to get and visit!

well while i was there with a few friends the cook/main person working since it was pretty late/early in the morning asked he if could ask me a personal question. i said yes. he said "are you usually this happy and upbeat?" and i smiled and responded with "i am so excited to say, yes i am! :)"

i have not always been a positive and upbeat person. it took me a long time to get to where i was today. i used to hate myself, i used to cry myself to sleep every night, i used to wish that i could be anyone else but me. i was the quite the unhappy person. i disliked every moment about it. it wasnt me, it wasnt who God created me to be!

i can say with the uttermost joy that i am no longer that person. i am someone who smiles on a regular basis, laughs almost every few minutes, and loves and cares about people deeply. i have joy. i am happy. i am positive. and i wouldnt change it for the world.

however, there are people who do not understand how i can be like this. they tell me that i am just being unrealistic and not practical. and this could very well be true. but to me it doesnt matter. i am not going to apologize for who i am or the joy that i have. so what if i want the best and look for the best in people. so what if i think and hope for things that arent realistic, it is what makes me happy. it is who God created me to be.

i am unconditionally loved by the creator of this world. always and forever. he is never changing. for some crazy reason he calls me his daughter and is well pleased. i cannot explain it or fully understand it. but i know that it is truth. so i will forever be a joyful person and want to share my joy with others.

this means i will continue to: ask people how they are doing, even if i have no idea who they are. i will say words like fantastic and radical to describe how i am doing. i will always smile and laugh even if i am having a bad day. i will remember how loved i am by the Lord and continue to follow him every day.